Do you feel?

Birthday Disaster

2008-12-07T21:12:00.000-08:00

My birthday this year wasn't a really good one, but it was memorable. Rebelling is just a part of growing up. Suffered the consequences, but everything's alright now.

Thank you to those who came on Friday night, I love y'all, I really do. Thanks to those who left me friendster comments and left me text messages too. (L) And, just when I thought everything was going haywire and all wrong, my boyfriend came and surprised me with the help of Jan. Although I didn't showed how happy I was, I really felt loved. Baby, you actually remembered that I want a birthday cake with a lot of candles on it to make wishes, thank you. From the birthday cake to the necklace, every single thing you did for me, I'd like to thank you from the bottom of my heart, you've been the biggest encouragement and strength to me, my heart knows when the search is over, I want you to be mine always bb.

My birthday wish this year was to survive through the torture on Sunday, it came true. I've not made another wish, which is to, hold on tight together with my babyboy and to have my girlfriends ALWAYS by my side no matter what. There, I said my wishes. =)

This is getting a tad too long. Pictures time.

SHOW YOU UGLY DEMONIC COCKED EYE FREAK

Most awesome birthday cake in my life

00 : 00

2008-11-28T01:51:00.000-08:00

I'm sleep deprived.. very in fact.

To dream that you are getting married to your current spouse again, represents your wedded bliss and happiness. It highlights your strong commitment to each other. It may also signify a new phase (such as parenthood) that you are entering in your life.

Yes I dreamt about my wedding this morning which was quite a funny sight cos seeing me in a wedding dress beside bb.. like funny only. Well anyways, 25th @ st james tire me out entirely. From the selling of tickets to my phone dying on me and certain issues. Bt well, glad everything's fine now. Thank you to those who comforted me, luv y'all x

Mm, my birthday's in less than 8 days, am not feeling any bit of excitement. I used to be all hyped up bout my birthday however I no longer feel that way. Maybe getting into clubs, booze, boys a tad too early ain't a good thing after all.

I need a wishlist, but doubt anyone's gonna get me anything!

My birthday will be @ Zouk, who wants to come, 5th Dec? Inform me online suckaaas.

x

x : these thoughts

2008-11-21T05:55:00.000-08:00

Hv been really busy, will continue to be busy till Thurs!

However, every night I lie on my bed, no matter how busy I get, I'll think of how my friends are doing and how love is doing. At times, I wake up in the middle of the night, getting sooo frustrated with myself over nothing. And that sucks soooo bad. :(

So I grab a jacket and go to my stairs and have a fag, and I'll go back to sleep.

Cycle continues, till today. Sleepless nights, wild thoughts running through my head. At times, I wanna find someone to talk to, like my bestfriends or boyfriend, however, I don't wanna disturb them from their sleep :( Sigh

SHUYI YOU ARE SO DEAD YOU HAVE MILD DEPRESSION :( :( :(

I really don't wanna whine about things here, I just had to pen down these thoughts.

Forsaken Times

2008-11-18T21:19:00.000-08:00

Only love let's us see normal things
In an extraordinary way.

Busy month ahead, from my birthday to my anniversary. I'm no superhuman man. Nevertheless, even how busy I get, my boy's always there. Thank God for that. It's already what, 4th week of the holidays? Gosh.. look how quickly time flies. I still remember what exactly happened on the first day of 2008. It's so scary, and unbelievable :\ And very soon, I'll be taking my o's ( uh yes, my o's I'm only 15 this year..ok barely 15! )

Another thing is, I'm not quite looking forward to my birthday this year. I've no idea why.. prolly cause I've no idea whats gonna happen on that day, maybe nothing at all. Sigh okok drop that topic..

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Stupid shit [edited]

2008-11-13T19:22:00.000-08:00

Yesterday night was crazy. Stupid shit happened to my friends, and I didn't really liked the whole idea of Gotham. We danced a bit, and went to talk to Cel, she told me things that I didn't expected. The things she told me yesterday got me thinking a lot, how can someone who she loves so much hurt her so bad. She's a really true friend indeed, I admire her thinking a lot like hows she can handle things so well when she's only 16.

Anywhos, my friend lost her bag with her boy's psp, bank card and bank book! That mofo out there who took it will rot, get his/her fingers chopped and may his/her body burn in hell! I was sooo pissed for her, she was crying and crying. :( If you read this, cheer up and rmb what I told you last night! Be happy as you've a good bf who values you more than he values his psp & stuffs.

Ugh.

And this morning, got into trouble with my dad, plain stupid. I think this week is jinxed.

Hopefully everything will turn out right tonight. x fingers

Time after time

2008-11-07T22:28:00.000-08:00

That was from Thursday.

I've been doing manicures non-stop, like I've changed my nail colour for 3 times in two weeks. I've french manicured nails now, I had blue two days ago.. this must stop. I'm soooo gonna burn a hole in my pocket soon.

Anywhos, I'm going to get my specs done later, like finally. I detest contacts so I dont wear them so I suffer with my 1/4 blind eyes everyday. Now I'm feeling a little giddy, my eyes hurts. Need specs! Damnnnnnn, I'm going to finish Eclipse today and hop onto Breaking Dawn, it has been lying on my table for 1 month or so already!! I can just turn to the last page of it and know the ending, but noooo, too epic fail.

kkkk byebye suckers. I'm gonna daydream about Edward while reading Eclipse!!

x

Twilight!

2008-11-05T05:24:00.000-08:00

"His mouth was on mine then, and I couldn’t fight him. Not because he was so many thousand times stronger than me, but because my will crumbled into dust the second our lips met."

I so badly wanna catch Twilight!!!

18 Dec, any takers? Ok right my girlfriends.....

And you know,

I DREAM OF EDWARD CULLEN EVERY NIGHT AND I THINK THAT MY BF IS HIM AT TIMES, COS IM THINKING TOO MUCH. MAN I KNOW ALEX, YOURE READING THIS DONT LEAVE ME COS IM CRAZY ABOUT EDWARD OKAY I STILL LOVE YOU x 10000000! EDWARD CULLEN SHALL BE MINE ONE DAY, AND IMMA NAME MYSELF MRS.CULLEN, OK FINE (MRS.GARCIA)........DAMN, I WANT EDWARD.

:(

Tickle my heart

2008-11-04T05:20:00.000-08:00

Spent my Saturday with Chrix and my dearest lovable bf!! I was soooo down dressed, i felt so ugh shdsakhdaskkfda. I hate it a lot when I am down dressed!! IN SLIPPERS. goddamnit, i was having a massive headache so I just put on anything thats infront of me, damn. I MUST NEVER EVER GO OUT WITH SLIPPERS AGAIN.. yuck eeewwww :(

Ok..

so Ive fallen sick, cause of two sweethearts who fell sick, and maaaan, I got infected too!!! :(

So yesterday I got really upset and pissed cause of some petty issue, I felt soooooo childish and ugh just stupid at that point of time. Should've tried to understand it better! But everythings fine naoooo. Phew phew!! I'm gonna sidetrack, I might be working @ Haji soon, or maybe somewhere at Bugis Junction. Finally, something to keep me occupied.

OK! Anywhos, anyone knows where can I get leotards at a cheap price & bandage skirts!
Please leave a comment, thx!

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I love you till my dying day baby.

Dumblicious

2008-11-02T01:31:00.000-07:00

Halloween was spent at Zouk.Although Halloween this year was quite screwed, I enjoyed myself COS IT WAS WITH THE VAMPIRE. Zouk was definitely packed to the core, had to squeeze in with the undead. Worst of all, we queued at the Velvet queue instead of Phuture's!

:( :( :(

Okay Halloween sucked this year, cuz something really bad happened!! I feel so guilty and dumb!! Ugh ugh ugh, nevermind. Well, I still have pictures from yesterday, will upload pix in the next post bai

2008-10-29T05:34:00.000-07:00

I kept sneezing today, must be the weather, or maybe it's you?
I miss you love.

Lara Stoneeeeee

2008-10-29T03:37:00.000-07:00

Lara stone is sooooo awesome I can go on and on and on about how much I adore her. From her hair to her shoes, everything's woooohooo purrrfect. Damn, she's so skinny I wished I was her. Ok nevermind, but I could just go crazy looking at her photos and ugh I wish I could meet her. I totally dig her hair man, it looks so nicely teased!! My hair can NEVER be teased that way.. ok Ive not tried yet bt still godlicious hawt. I love Lara Stone!!11

Love,

2008-10-26T18:34:00.000-07:00

It doesn't make the world go round,
It is what makes the ride worthwhile.

Lose my nerve

2008-10-22T05:54:00.000-07:00

I feel so so so inferior.

You're not a make believe right?

2008-10-18T02:19:00.000-07:00

Hai I realised I've got major issues. I can't seem to trust people easily, I get this feeling that everyone's lying and cheating in some way or another. Ok well some r white lies, they r fine. However, the worst thing is, I cannot seem to trust that particular person that keeps reassuring me that I should trust him and he'll not do things to hurt me. I reeeeally hope you r reading this, coz I really wanna trust you bt somehow, I can't. Really. I was hurt twice, I dont want to repeat th same old mistakes over and over again you know. Although you're telling me things I really wanna hear, I can't seem to believe those words, I FEEL THAT YOU R LYING.. How now brown cow? I am so sad god bless in the name of allah that I will learn to trust.

Realize

2008-10-17T19:40:00.000-07:00

And the reason why I love bus rides home with best friend :

Yesterday was spent walking around Fareast with Jan, hunting for jobs. We found one @ this hair extensions shop, bt th pay's supaaar low which is sooo not worth it, damn it. Well, shopped around a bit and settled for KFC = FATX fullstop Ah waited for Chrix and lepak around town, then played Dare!!!! We had dares like, going into NUM and ask for Size 0 for a random slipper.. which resulted in the salesboy going O.O WHAT? His face was goddamn priceless, and I received a dare to stand beside this group of weird foreigners, and laugh along with them. Headed to Cityhall with Chrix after that, cigs to accompany us for an hour or so, headache kicked in after that..

"No one will get in the way of what I'm feeling"

I kinda luv my life naow bai fullstop

With that heavy feeling in my chest

2008-10-15T03:11:00.000-07:00

{Edited}

Shouldn't even have posted that up! Okay I guess I'm a tad better bt nt that good, lucky you if you saw that post just now. Ugh ugh I need retail therapy..fucken god sake, I really feel like skipping school tomorrow. My dad just lectured me about romance.. bt he's less stricter, however that doesn't make me feel any better. Cause I'm confused.

Just crushed by the sweetest lips Ive ever tasted

Hush hush

2008-10-14T05:15:00.000-07:00

Hai I m very sad and annoyed now, I shouldn't be feeling this way I really should not. I slammed my door when I reached home and burst out crying, I ran into the toilet, and tried to sort out my thinking. This is very very very sad, I will lose my sleep tonight, I definitely will...

If u r seeing this, please trust me, all my friends r very good in keeping secrets, they will neva evaaaaa tell anyone. I m sorry bout just now.. I dont feel good. Forgive me?

Everyone has a "best friend" during each stage of life-only a precious few have the same one.
-- Author Unknown

What's a wonderwall anyway?

2008-10-09T17:57:00.000-07:00

My exams are over and done with, sweet. However, I can predict myself being a very bored kid soon, I will end up going to town to shop :( Bt lucky me,I fought my temptations of shopping like a whore yesterday! Christine and I scooted off to fareast when the others were watching a movie, hmm after that we went off to cityhall, and played the "oh-you-cannot-step-on-the-line" game, we were hopping like mad bunnies.. this guy had to give us the O.O look!!!1 Btw, I need a job I need a job I need a job I need a job. Please leave a comment if you know of any jobs! Thankq mwa mwa.

I'm going to meet my homiez later, I so can't wait!!!!

Strangers to lovers

2008-09-30T06:31:00.000-07:00

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful." -A Walk To Remember

Haven't been updating this space for eons, hv lotsa things to blog about bt on the other hand, I dont know how to express the way that I'm feeling right now. Well, okay firstly, exams!!! The killer.. i swear. Everyday, I wake up at 6.15am to get to school, reach home by 1 latest, and go out again to study.. the cycle continues.. and when I reach home, I get all tired so I'll be fast asleep by 10.30pm. Ugh, this have to continue till next thurs, terror! Bt, I'll soon get back ALL of my freedom, sooooo, I guess it's okay!!!

Another thing, I've been spending sooo much online. !!

My relationships r screwed.. seriously screwed. Oh God, help me, SOS!

On the other handddd, I went mugging with Jan today. Did 6 fucking chapters of Physics, quite satisfied, ahh okay I was trying to say..must stop digressing, we took the ol' school neoprints! 3 freaking bucks only.. I remember it was like 8 bucks or so last time, wow! The neoprints are with Jan though, so weird so weird.. we actually took neoprints. Ahhh, will post up pictures pronto! very tired now.. :(

You've found somebody new

2008-09-21T02:53:00.000-07:00

Someone told me he saw you and your new girl yesterday, it has been only what? 1 week since we broke up. You're sucha disappointment and I can't believe you're like this. Really, you've changed so much that I don't even think I know you anymore. Now I'm more than relieved we're finally over. Well, I just wanna say thank you cause you've made me a lot more stronger than I was before after all the heartaches.

Sooo , Chrissy came over yesterday to study together, but we ended up playing dress up again! ^^

Am I crazy or falling in love?

2008-09-18T05:27:00.000-07:00

Please do not tell me this is more than just a crush.
Not right before my exams, and not after a break up.
Well, perhaps this is it !!!!!!

Ge3k Alert

2008-09-17T04:43:00.000-07:00

Swear to be a geek.. at least till the end of the exams !

But, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna fail my combined sciences, was never good at that in the first place. I must pass my maths I must pass my maths I must pass my maths !!!!! I must get good grades and be a filial daughter.

Yeahhh.. okay fuck exams. I'm irritated.

Wasted

2008-09-13T21:46:00.000-07:00

Well, I guess it's over now. There's no need to look back and think about what went wrong, I'm glad that I've let go of such a huge burden that had been bothering me for weeks. I guess.. goodbye's ain't that bad after all.

Okaywokay shall not talk about it already!

Yeah so yesterday I went to sheesha with Leyi, Peiqin, Tyson and Kokwai. Oh yeah, I miz miz miz sheesha! I picked up my bad habit yesterday again.. I'm so dead. Has been months and now, it's coming back again. Must. Stop. It... mm and we went to Tyson's place to drink! I can hardly remember what happened after the alcohol took over my body. Musn't embarrass myself by drinking too much again.. Weird thing is, I can't remember why my bolster ended up at my sofa instead of my room yesterday night after I got back home.

You know it's true

2008-09-12T00:39:00.000-07:00

I feel that studying is like a fucking cycle. You study, you get your grades, you fail, you study again..and yeah you get me. Well, not everyone is like what I've mentioned, but I'm like that! Which is why studying alone, is draining up ALL my energy. I don't even have time for my friends, let alone, my boyfriend..

Damn. It.

Another major issue is that, I've some things to sort out. I cannot just let it be cause I know it won't work out like this. Why is it that someone's actually caring more about me than my boyfriend? Yes, I know some people out there must be thinking that I'm unfaithful and all. But just so you know, there's helluva lots of issues between me and my boyfriend. What is it like to know that you actually can go to someone who really trust and cares for you, or to have a boyfriend who isn't there for you always and his mentality is totally different from yours? Well I'm confused, afraid.. and.. everything. Cross my fingers, I really hope to solve this issue as soon as possible. :(

Slight reminder, 14 more days to EOY,
and I've to decide whether to get this biker jacket online at 80bucks... hurrr

I'm back !

2008-09-06T06:49:00.000-07:00

I'm back from Bkk !!! Super lots of loots, and I'm v v v happy ! I luv Bangkok, tuktuk, night bazaars, flea markets, shopping mall, awesome food sums up to a very happy me ! I might be going to Guangzhou at the end of the year, more awesome stuffs ! Well, school's starting in 2 days time ! :( Anyways, went to have dinner with da boyfriend today, happy anniversary hun, love you long time ! Awesome catch up with him, heh! Met best friend today too, woah I missed everyone ! I'm gonna meet kittiekat tmr to study, have to motivate her! :) Pictures post tomorrow!

I pretend I'm fine

2008-08-27T06:10:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you have to test someone not because you don't trust them, but to see how much they'll sacrifice for you. Sometimes, you'll have to let them go not because you suddenly stopped caring about them, but to see if they care enough to come back.

I'll be okay. If that was what you wanted me to say.

Nuff' of the emotional issue I guess.. school's out in 2 days ! So can't wait for my bkk trip, well I'm gonna miss my friends for one freaking week ! Super looking forward to the mango rice, miz it miz it, of course the shopping ! But before all that, there's parents and teacher meeting tomorrow, am. so. friggin. dead.

But on a lighter note, there's be-yourself-day in school on Friday wooohoo, can make them stop saying that I look like a druggie with jet black hair!!!!! Annoying.

A reminder for myself, need. to. stop. shopping. and. start. studying.

N-O-W !

I miss you

2008-08-25T03:37:00.000-07:00

Love, where art thou?

Our relationship has deteriorated till it has reached an extent where we're so used to quarrels and arguments now and then, and now, we can't seem to figure out what caused all these conflicts between us. We just keep on arguing over nothing, and then we compromise again. But, after which, we didn't treasure each other enough and even worse, we took each other for granted. It's like, you know I'll always be there but you're not showing that you cherish every thing I've done for you. And it's like, you're not grateful for all I know. When I first accepted you to be part of me, I know I was taking a huge risk. I was willing to do that, even if I know things won't work out as I've planned. You promised not to hurt me anymore, after that time when we broke up once. And do you even know that this is hurting me, even more? Seriously, I hope that when we meet again on Friday, things will get better. I'm sorry Hun.

Photobooth 4 life!

2008-08-22T05:51:00.001-07:00

Were messing with photobooth in school for the past two days, haha awesome. Teachers have been mind-fucking us to study, but I guess it really worked. Cause I think I'll probably transform into a geek next week. All play no work, makes Jack a....fun boy, but stupid. Okay whatever, finals are like in 35 days and my bf is asking me to buck up already !!! So I must start studying, and prove it to him that his girl is not a loser4life, so my room is gonna be filled with post-its with maths and science formulas and literature notes and Imma bring study notes to Bangkok too !!!

Ahhh but actions speak louder than words, I. must. start. studying.
, and get specs done asap.

When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you,
not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I’m with you.
It makes me forget the distance and capture you.

Para Vivr Y Amor

2008-08-20T02:21:00.000-07:00

Ah Harrison, I miss you, O brother where art thou!
Darn, I miss sheeshaing with you and I miss all your nonsense whenever you're around! Everytime when I hear the songs that we used to dance to, I'd be reminded that I would not be able to see sucha good friend like you again. You better come back from NewYork asap, alright! Everyone's missing you like hell here.

Anyhow, I managed to survive 3 days without talking to my bf!! See, National Service trains girls to not be so dependent on their boys!

Sushi Maniacs

2008-08-19T04:56:00.000-07:00

Liying and I were cheapskate people yesterday, we ended up eating sushi at Carrefour, awesome right ! Superb sushi for just less than 10 bucks, I love I love. Okay so anyhow, we felt unglam but cool cause tell me, who on earth would go to Carrefour for their sushi ONLY. Hehehe well, school's ending next week and 3 more weeks to my finals! The worse thing is, I'm flying off to Bangkok on 1 September. Ah shopping mood ruins studying mood, haha but nothing beats shopping 24/7 non-stop! Another thing is, I'm not able to see/contact my boyfriend for 1 week! Eternal damnation!!

Carpe Diem

2008-08-18T01:53:00.000-07:00

Sooo Ive decided to blog on two sides, once again, like how I did last time.
But I suppose that I'd make a decision whether to blog here or at my livejournal soon,okay maybe sticking to blogger.

Anyway, Harrison left for America yesterday morning. The first friend of mine whose leaving the country to study abroad. We used to hang out late at night and just smoking our lives away, and remember those nights we spent partying like theres no tomorrow? Its a pity for him to leave the country but I hope he'll study hard there and make good use of his life! I just wanna wish him luck for his future endeavors and I'll be seeing you soon!

Oh well, just hope that I don't hafta blog about farewells again!